Do you trust ME?

Do you trust ME?

Do you trust ME? Do you trust ME? Words that are very powerful when someone  asks you for confirmation that you believe that they are looking out for your best interest. What do you do though when the Lord asks you that question and he asks you twice? 

Last September Terrance was asked this question by the Lord twice and later that day I found out that my office was closing and we were in the middle of building a house.  I was devastated, but it made sense to Terrance why the Lord asked him because at the time the Lord asked it didn’t make sense.  Terrance was calm because he knew the Lord was going to see us thru. The Lord did come thru but it took 3 months to happen and it happened right on time for us to be able to close on our house.  Praise the Lord.

In the midst of this storm of no job for me, we were living with my mom until the house was finished. We finally get a call about a baby that we were selected for. To make a long story short the adoption didn’t end up happening. We were heartbroken and confused but we are still trusting the Lord’s plan even thru the hurt.

In January I started my new job and made a lot of special friends but it just didn’t seem like “home” for me after being there for several months and I started looking for a new job. The Lord opened the door and placed me in a new position that is truly utilizing my skills and teaching me a lot and I truly love my co-workers.

We thought that we have been in the valley long enough and we were starting up the mountain finally after lots of disappointments this past year. We were wrong.

In May on Terrance’s birthday to be exact he suffered from severe back issues. After visiting the chiropractor many times which normally would fix him the pain was not getting any better. He has suffered since May and finally after prodding from his client to see her husband and get an MRI he did. We were fully expecting to hear that he had a disc issue but this call was much different than we had anticipated.  The doctor called and said in the corner of the MRI there is a mass. After weeks of scans and a biopsy they have determined that he has cancer. Yes you heard me right cancer.

We are looking to the words the Lord asked Terrance a year ago “Do you trust ME?”

The oncologist appointment was yesterday and the doctor is very positive about what type he has and that he will be successful thru his chemotherapy. There is a long road ahead of us, but the Lord has been with us thru the fire over the past year and we have nothing but to trust what lays before us.

I just want to ask for prayers for us during this trial and especially for Terrance that the Lord will help him with enduring the chemotherapy. The Lord has already done amazing works on this journey so far and we are trusting him to finish this path with joy.

God bless,

Stephanie

The Next Step

The Next Step

It has been a while since I posted last.  A lot has happened and the Lord has definitely moved in our hearts and lead us down a new path.  After lots of prayers and broken hearts over the past 7 years the Lord has given us peace about the next step and we are happy to say that we are ADOPTING!!  If you would have asked me 7 years ago I don’t know that I would believe you if you told me that we would one day adopt.  I always thought that the Lord would allow for a miracle or one of many procedures would work and that was the ending, but the Lord saw differently in a good way. 

The turning point for us was after we exhausted every method we could financially afford and mentally take, the Lord told me that I was done trying and we had a peace about it.  I can’t explain it but I knew that we had done all we could do and there were no doubts of that in my heart what so ever. We took a breather for the rest of the year and we wanted to hear from the Lord, “What is our next step Lord?”  At the beginning of the year I spoke for hours to a sweet sister in Christ ,Jennifer about adoption, because like us she was unable to have children, and thru her talking the Lord was whispering to me, “Do you want to carry a child, or do you want to be a mom?” Of course I told the Lord I want to be a mom and that is where we are today.  After hearing her story and the blessing that her child is I knew that this is what the Lord wants for us.  There will be no difference to us or our family that this child is not from our bloodline because it will be OURS.  Are we nervous, YES!  Are we scared, YES!  Is the Lord faithful to give us the perfect child, YES! 

I would ask for you to pray for us that the Lord would bless us with the child he wants.  We are open to either a boy or a girl and we are even open for it being all the way to a toddler. Please also keep us in mind if you have any family members or acquaintances that may not be able to be a parent and are willing to consider adoption. 

We appreciate everyone’s support thru the years and especially your prayers.

 

God Bless,

Terrance and Stephanie

 

P.S. The Lord has given me this verse while on this journey and I am holding on to His truth.

Ephesians 3:20 Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us.

A Jigsaw Puzzle

So I am kind of a nerd because I love to do jigsaw puzzles.  I like the challenge and though I don’t get to do them often, but when I do get a chance to tackle one I enjoy it.

 

I have been doing a lot of reflecting within and trying to know and ask the Lord what he has in store for Terrance in I in regards to children and the jigsaw puzzle came to mind.  There are lots of individual pieces that have to fit together just perfectly to make in the end a beautiful picture.  I envision me sitting at the Lord ’s Table working these pieces but without seeing the full picture of what the end will look like and just working the puzzle the way he guides me.  At times I wonder am I trying to force a piece together that doesn’t belong together or is that piece supposed to connect?

 

The Lord has given me peace all along this hard and long journey that he will bring beauty in the way of children and I am just working the pieces the best I know I am able.  I know one day when I look back and see how all those pieces had to go together first so that in the end we will his hand throughout the whole process.  He is a faithful God and Savior. 

 

Another thing I have learned in this puzzle is sometimes I try to “figure out” what the Lord’s plan is and sometimes it doesn’t work out the way I thought it should.  So I am learning and growing to know that he only gives us light for the step ahead and doesn’t want to overwhelm us with how we get the prize but just to trust him no matter what bad results or disappointments we get.

 

We are seeking right now prayers from our friends and family for guidance from the Lord.  I don’t want Terrance and Stephanie’s plan but what the Lord wants us to do.  His plan is much more beautiful than we can ever imagine.  We treasure your prayers and thank you all for being with us through these 5 long years.

 

God Bless,

Stephanie

 

Isaiah 55:9  “As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My Ways higher than your way and My Thoughts than your thoughts.