Ok raw emotion coming thru.
The dreaded day of Mother’s Day is quickly approaching and my heart is
once again sad. When I planned my life
many years ago I saw myself married and that this point done having children not
still waiting to have them and knowing that you can’t get pregnant naturally, but only
thru a medical procedure. My heart’s
desire is to be pregnant by this time next year and that is what I feel will
happen thru the Lord’s help, but what if we are still in a holding pattern at
that point trying to figure out the next step?
I know the Lord has helped me thus far with this process and he will
continue to lift me until his most perfect plan is revealed but how long is
that? My ladies in my support group,
which mean the world to me by the way, we were talking last night about how
much easier it would be if the Lord just showed us the end result reassuring us
that a child is in our future, but that is not how the Lord works. He has this thing call trust him with your hopes
and dreams and he knows the desires of your heart. Daily the devil tries to make me doubt in the
Lord’s abilities and likes to make me doubt his mercy for me, but I keep
turning this over to the Lord asking for his help. I am not going to give up because I truly feel
in my soul that the Lord is about to bless us with children. I can’t explain the peace he gives me but I
know it will come. My heart and soul are
not giving up!
As a reminder to you mother’s out there love on your
children no matter how bad or good they have been and know there are people
like me who would love to be a mother and be blessed like you have been. Children are a gift from the Lord.
I hope you all have a Happy Mother’s Day and love on your
Mother’s on the 13th.
God Bless~Stephanie
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